After three and a half years of trying, three doctors, dozens of tests and medications, and one surgery, she is finally pregnant with their first child, a little boy due May 20th - 21 weeks along tomorrow! And of course, they are both estatic! They've been joyously decorating the nursery and buying little blue outfits - it's all happy, happy, happy at their house! But now the date is getting closer, she's getting really big, it's becoming more and more real to her, and her feet are finally back on the ground! And she's starting to look at the practicalities and panicing a little! She called me and was talking about checking out day cares near where she works - very expensive! And she's thinking about things she hadn't considered before. She said, "Mama, what if he's sick and I have to go to work?!" "What if the day care is closed and we both have to work?!" "What if there's nobody to watch him ....?" I just told her, "Welcome to the wonderful world of motherhood!" And secretly, I was a just little bit pleased that it's not ME anymore that has to contend with all this and I can just watch from afar - three states away! Payback of sorts for the years and years I spend 'kid juggling' while working full time ... so, does that qualify me as "evil"?