Happy Birthday difficult child Today is difficult childs 17th birthday he called earlier this evening and we spoke for 54 minutes. Hes been gone now for 109 days. He says he is doing fine, hasnt abandoned his family, its just we dont understand the way things are. He is not going to be the robot son we want (like going to school and not taking drugs) oops, I mean he doesnt take drugs, because weed isnt a drug. He sees no need for an education right now. HE WANTS TO BE HAPPY. And he is happy living with his friends and just hanging out. When asked what his plans are his response is I dont have a plan-this isnt forever, its just what I want for right now. He would really like to come home but he cant because a) he would have to face the consequences and b) he does not want to stop smoking weed and he realizes that would cause problems. When asked what hes doing for money (since he has no job, no id, etc.) he finally admitted hes a middle man he just hooks friends up with other friends that happen to have drugs for sale. He actually said hes not really selling because he never has possession of the product its like a finders fee. When asked about the possible consequences for his actions he said I have just as good a chance as everybody else to not get caught its basically a risk worth taking in order to be happy. I reminded him that when he does get caught he will go to big jail not juvenile any longer. Didnt faze him in the least. I lost it a few times even scared myself it started off okay but the more I heard him speak the angrier I became. I demanded explanations I cursed him and told him he will wish he was in a juvenile detention center when I get a hold of him I asked who the ---- did he think he was to do this to our family I think you get the picture. Far cry from inviting him for coffee but who are we kidding. I really am shot I feel like just crawling under a rock and staying there forever. This is not what was supposed to happen.