Marguerite
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I'm glad the support group was helpful. A point on your daughter's case being different - that actually would not be a problem, because the other families perhaps will benefit form seeing that the spectrum of problems is wider than they realised.
When I mentioned my knitting before - it serves many purposes. I often found when I was feeling particularly edgy or stressed, there was no way I could concentrate on a book or even a magazine. My eyes would scan across the words but nothing would sink in. Knitting (and I am not an expert, I struggle to knit but finished a very large blanket before Christmas!) gives my hands something to do, which helps use up some of the adrenalin charging around my body and which otherwise is sending my anxiety levels up. But it has another really good effect - it makes you LOOK as if you are calm and purposeful. You can knit while you sit by your daughter. You look relaxed and patient. Your daughter's anxiety should reduce ("Mom is calm, she's knitting") and in return, yours also. Doctors/nurses also see you as someone in control and calm, and treat you accordingly.
It's like wearing your own camouflage. It feeds into a positive feedback loop - the calmer you look, the more people treat you as calm, the better you feel and the better your daughter feels. And it keeps feeding round and round, boosting higher.
So what if your knitting end-result looks like a tangled mess? And you never know - you might get good at it.
Since I began doing this (and I do most of it while waiting, especially while I was waiting at the Cancer Centre) I have knitted a large blanket (as I said - I gave it to a family whose baby son is about to get a donor kidney from dad); three aran knit tea cosies which I donated to be raffled by a local charity; one aran knit tea cosy which I gave to my sister-in-law for her birthday. I knitted the blanket in squares (Wrapped With Love have good instructions on the internet) and sewed the squares together. As I got more confident as a knitter, I made the squares a little more challenging - knitting a cable in one, three of them I knitted a heart in (my first one looks more like a blob) and used leftover scraps to knit a stripey square too.
And now I'm about to get a bit more adventurous. I'm knitting a child's jumper with a panda bear on it (multi-coloured pattern from a book I was given) and it could be beyond me. I don't know a child I can give it to. At my rate, I will be able to give it to a grandchild, even though none of my kids is pregnant yet.
I knit using circular needles because it is easier for my weak muscles. I don't knit full round, I just knit from one side to the other, then back again as normal). But circular needle knitting packs into your bag more easily (no long needles sticking out and snagging on things) and also I can pack it away in my bag instantly, mid-row if I have to.
Or there's crochet - that's something else you can put down instantly (say, when the doctor shows up doing his rounds).
People see me knitting in stressful situations and wonder how I can be so calm. But I'm not - I'm knitting because I'm NOT calm!
A funny story - I had a meeting to go to lat Wednesday, I knew it was going to be stressful and upsetting, so I took my knitting. I knew if I was actually knitting then I could make a lot of mistakes, the meeting was going to be so heated. And it was. So I organised my knitting so I was actually sewing pieces together (another tea cosy) through the meeting. And you know what? I was so tense, I sewed up the tea cosy without leaving any holes for the handle and the spout! I had to unpick part of it the next night! But it worked - at the meeting, they all thought I was calm. I needed them to think that.
Marg
When I mentioned my knitting before - it serves many purposes. I often found when I was feeling particularly edgy or stressed, there was no way I could concentrate on a book or even a magazine. My eyes would scan across the words but nothing would sink in. Knitting (and I am not an expert, I struggle to knit but finished a very large blanket before Christmas!) gives my hands something to do, which helps use up some of the adrenalin charging around my body and which otherwise is sending my anxiety levels up. But it has another really good effect - it makes you LOOK as if you are calm and purposeful. You can knit while you sit by your daughter. You look relaxed and patient. Your daughter's anxiety should reduce ("Mom is calm, she's knitting") and in return, yours also. Doctors/nurses also see you as someone in control and calm, and treat you accordingly.
It's like wearing your own camouflage. It feeds into a positive feedback loop - the calmer you look, the more people treat you as calm, the better you feel and the better your daughter feels. And it keeps feeding round and round, boosting higher.
So what if your knitting end-result looks like a tangled mess? And you never know - you might get good at it.
Since I began doing this (and I do most of it while waiting, especially while I was waiting at the Cancer Centre) I have knitted a large blanket (as I said - I gave it to a family whose baby son is about to get a donor kidney from dad); three aran knit tea cosies which I donated to be raffled by a local charity; one aran knit tea cosy which I gave to my sister-in-law for her birthday. I knitted the blanket in squares (Wrapped With Love have good instructions on the internet) and sewed the squares together. As I got more confident as a knitter, I made the squares a little more challenging - knitting a cable in one, three of them I knitted a heart in (my first one looks more like a blob) and used leftover scraps to knit a stripey square too.
And now I'm about to get a bit more adventurous. I'm knitting a child's jumper with a panda bear on it (multi-coloured pattern from a book I was given) and it could be beyond me. I don't know a child I can give it to. At my rate, I will be able to give it to a grandchild, even though none of my kids is pregnant yet.
I knit using circular needles because it is easier for my weak muscles. I don't knit full round, I just knit from one side to the other, then back again as normal). But circular needle knitting packs into your bag more easily (no long needles sticking out and snagging on things) and also I can pack it away in my bag instantly, mid-row if I have to.
Or there's crochet - that's something else you can put down instantly (say, when the doctor shows up doing his rounds).
People see me knitting in stressful situations and wonder how I can be so calm. But I'm not - I'm knitting because I'm NOT calm!
A funny story - I had a meeting to go to lat Wednesday, I knew it was going to be stressful and upsetting, so I took my knitting. I knew if I was actually knitting then I could make a lot of mistakes, the meeting was going to be so heated. And it was. So I organised my knitting so I was actually sewing pieces together (another tea cosy) through the meeting. And you know what? I was so tense, I sewed up the tea cosy without leaving any holes for the handle and the spout! I had to unpick part of it the next night! But it worked - at the meeting, they all thought I was calm. I needed them to think that.
Marg