<span style='font-size: 11pt'> </span> <span style='font-family: Century Gothic'> </span> So I am a newbie lol. I have a LOT of questions. You guys have helped me so much already with my difficult child. (I love it here!) The situation is now getting started towards a new evaluation for my difficult child with a Child Psychiatrist. I have ordered the book Explosive Child yesterday through wal-mart online. I feel so much relief. But OFTEN after a particularly bad round of mental tug of war with my difficult child, usually occurs over the weekend, by the way. She is now on Tuesday,mellow and so.... well NORMAL. That I feel GUILTY!!! for thinking something is wrong with her personality. And yet I have been dealing with her symptoms for 8 years (since she was 3 years old) It sometimes feels as if I am going crazy in this manner. She has been so peaceful (although still quietly defiant) today and yesterday, it makes me feel as if I have been imagining things all along...WEIRD FEELING. Has anyone else experienced this? What in the world to do about it? I have started keeping a journal of her moods/reactions/outbursts /and things that she might say to me and her sister. just to see how many ups and downs she has in a given month.