Again, just need to let it out... Someone finally called from the treatment center where he did PHP and told me that all he has are vivitrol shots set up... no counseling, no IOP, no psychiatric appointments, nothing to hold him accountable at all. So the 2 weeks of PHP was most likely to save his job. He is back to work- went back last week. Heard about how high is credit cards are through a text, was told he has to withdraw $ form his 401k due to hardship because he owes his ER copays and has no money.., heard he only has $100 left after he pays rent until his next pay, etc. I didn't take the bait, I just didn't react to those texts. He hasn't reached out all weekend and I fear he relapsed again. I feel so un-mom like by not asking how he is, by not asking how work is, etc. Is it okay that I am not making any effort and reaching out to my son? I am so tired. I know I have done way more than I ever should have for him and nothing worked. I know he has to face the consequences and I am letting him. I am not paying for anything. I guess it is okay I am not reaching out to him. It isn't like he ever reaches out to us to see how we are doing or how his grandparents are doing? I am just emotional today. Work sucks, home life sucks and this with my son sucks... Thanks for listening.