Well, we survived the wind up of emotions before the big summer visitation. difficult child 1 left tonight for x's house. He'll be back in 3 weeks. I had husband take him to the visitation exchange because I couldn't. difficult child 1 was emotional. husband has never seen him emotional at an exchange before. difficult child 1 normally saves that for when I take him. Right up until the time to leave difficult child 1 was saying he wasn't really going, or that x would bring him right back if he (difficult child 1) would ask him to. I feel so bad for difficult child 1. I'm having to remind myself that x will be on good behavior because they have a therapy appointment tomorrow morning. And then another one sometime in the middle of the visit. I'm sure difficult child 1 will tell the therapist he doesn't want to be there and x will be all disney dad trying to bribe difficult child 1 to change his mind. I also feel bad that its going to be so nice here without him. I won't have to keep everyone in the living room so I can make sure they are safe. There were times I've had to send difficult child 1 outside or downstairs and the other kids don't understand why they can't go too. And with out him here the verbal fighting decreases dramatically.