I try to bring up irritation or any easier feeling to deal with, but I can't lie to myself that much. Sad truth is, that Ache is not well and is likely hanging there with skin of his teeth. And it is simply sad. He went back couple weeks ago after coming here beginning of his summer vacation totally messed up. At home, with calm surroundings and very few demands he seemed to calm down and get a grip. But it only took this little time that he is lashing left and right and acting like bundle of raw nerves. It was, of course, triggered by something. It always is. This time someone said him something very nasty and he got upset. That is something I can understand, some rumours of his past transgressions have snowballed so that next time he hears them, they are probably telling how he raped and murdered orphanage full of preschoolers after first making them kill their pet puppies and eat them too and after that robbing UNICEF blind. It truly is ridiculous and hurtful. When Ache was 14 he may or may not have said a lewd comment about a girl his team mate was crushing at. It is about the first rule of locker room that you do not touch your team mate's girl, but Ache was clueless enough and eager enough to try come off as tough guy that I can totally believe he made some comments that others did not find appropriate. Or it could be, as their then coach suspected, just more popular boys making it up to haze the two ruts of the litter (the other boy was not popular either.) Anyway not a huge crime in perspective. Now rumour of that incident has snowballed to rumour that Ache would had raped/taken advantage of really drunk girlfriend of other team mate two years later in party in the home of third team mate. Though Ache was never invited to those parties and the 'raped girl' and other team mate only met year after Ache had moved 3 hours away and Ache has never met that girl in person. Tales about him stealing have gotten similar boost. About no one of course actually believes these rumours, but I understand they are hurtful especially considering all the things people gossiping those things do not know. I understand the hurt and anger. Apparently his mentor figure had tried to advise him how he should take it. How he can not do anything to gossip and how he should just forget it and understand that when you are caught of something, people tend to always assume worse than what you actually did and you just have to live it down and how Ache should concentrate on doing other things better instead of wallowing in self pity. But Ache was too hurt and anxious to hear the message and felt his mentor figure was being patronising. Or that is how I assume it did go down. Anyway Ache is now lashing left and right, bashing his mentor, letting his hurt show even to outsiders and bit in social media. And there are of course people who react like predators when they see that the prey is already wounded and bleeding. Not pretty. While him acting out from fear is so palpable, and that gives him understanding, I do worry he crosses one of those boundaries that are not acceptable while trashing around. I also hate how he will feel when he calms down and understand what he said to his mentor and about him. They are very attached and because of that it will hurt both of them. And I can't get him to calm down this time. Not in the phone, not with the distance.