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<blockquote data-quote="BusynMember" data-source="post: 666090" data-attributes="member: 1550"><p>Cedar, unless I don't see them at all, I don't heal. I get thrown back to emotional flashbacks, also called fleas. I love the word fleas for that...lol. They pull too many triggers.</p><p></p><p>I'm ashamed to say it is hard to even talk to my dad, although I do, because he reminds me of them, even though he doesn't talk about them. </p><p></p><p>I do not believe anyone can heal without abandoning those that hurt them. I doubt I can ever see my two leftover foos again without it starting up again. We just take up our old roles again and for me...I'm not going to do it. </p><p></p><p>I have been very upbeat since deciding no contact/no cheating. </p><p></p><p>That's one reason I'd like to take this conversation to a private place. If we all posted together where we were 100% shielded from anyone finding us and reading what we write, I would feel safer. I do not believe my sister is strong enough to stop reading my thoughts. My brother, yes. My sister, no.</p><p></p><p>I would like to feel like my thoughts are protected. I would still post here, on the CD part of the site, but I want to feel that nobody in foo can get to me in any way. They have no right to my thoughts, although I validate that as long as I put them down here...where the public can read...they can see them.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="BusynMember, post: 666090, member: 1550"] Cedar, unless I don't see them at all, I don't heal. I get thrown back to emotional flashbacks, also called fleas. I love the word fleas for that...lol. They pull too many triggers. I'm ashamed to say it is hard to even talk to my dad, although I do, because he reminds me of them, even though he doesn't talk about them. I do not believe anyone can heal without abandoning those that hurt them. I doubt I can ever see my two leftover foos again without it starting up again. We just take up our old roles again and for me...I'm not going to do it. I have been very upbeat since deciding no contact/no cheating. That's one reason I'd like to take this conversation to a private place. If we all posted together where we were 100% shielded from anyone finding us and reading what we write, I would feel safer. I do not believe my sister is strong enough to stop reading my thoughts. My brother, yes. My sister, no. I would like to feel like my thoughts are protected. I would still post here, on the CD part of the site, but I want to feel that nobody in foo can get to me in any way. They have no right to my thoughts, although I validate that as long as I put them down here...where the public can read...they can see them. [/QUOTE]
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