Im 45, my youngest is 9, my oldest is 26.. and I have my hands full with a few kids and a mother and sister who ae all ADHD Ishhh
My youngest son 9 and one of my middle children 15 have been diagnosed with ADHD, and a few of my other kids have simila traits but not to bad, I had lived a life of torment with my mother, having to cope with a lot of nasty things as a child, then found my self in an abusive marrage, now divorsed which ended 23 years ago.. from a life of rape and abuse, i think ive coped really well.. and life is good right now, but the torment of a very negative teen who is constantly bullying his younger sister and brother, is really getting me down, ive never felt this low.. to an extent were i feel like packing up my things and just leaving, but, the love I have for my kids always outrides the temptation to just leave... im not a quiter, im a strong independant person, a spiritual person, but right now, i feel at rock bottom, and I feel liek giving up... Ive just searched on the net for some help, looking for a way out of all this mess, cant stop crying, i feel ive failed... all my life, its been my dream to have lots of children, and i love them all so much, i love teaching them things, i want nothing more to see them be happy, and to do well, and get good jobs... a few are in uni, one has graduated, but he wont speak with me at the moment, because his dad raped me, and he cant bare to face the truth.. its difficult.. my ex husband is a very nasty man, but i know he loves his kids, and hes done a lovely job telling the kids that im a lier.. which really hurts, after all hes put me through... poor kids getting caught up in such a mess which one man has caused.. things latly have came to ahead.. all because my 20 year old daughter started to ask me about the past a few weeks ago, and I tell what happend, and im the bad person.... sorry for going on to much, I know im just new here, but I am so despret to find somewere, so I can let this all out x Im sick of bottling things up in my head, which are upsetting me so much
My youngest son 9 and one of my middle children 15 have been diagnosed with ADHD, and a few of my other kids have simila traits but not to bad, I had lived a life of torment with my mother, having to cope with a lot of nasty things as a child, then found my self in an abusive marrage, now divorsed which ended 23 years ago.. from a life of rape and abuse, i think ive coped really well.. and life is good right now, but the torment of a very negative teen who is constantly bullying his younger sister and brother, is really getting me down, ive never felt this low.. to an extent were i feel like packing up my things and just leaving, but, the love I have for my kids always outrides the temptation to just leave... im not a quiter, im a strong independant person, a spiritual person, but right now, i feel at rock bottom, and I feel liek giving up... Ive just searched on the net for some help, looking for a way out of all this mess, cant stop crying, i feel ive failed... all my life, its been my dream to have lots of children, and i love them all so much, i love teaching them things, i want nothing more to see them be happy, and to do well, and get good jobs... a few are in uni, one has graduated, but he wont speak with me at the moment, because his dad raped me, and he cant bare to face the truth.. its difficult.. my ex husband is a very nasty man, but i know he loves his kids, and hes done a lovely job telling the kids that im a lier.. which really hurts, after all hes put me through... poor kids getting caught up in such a mess which one man has caused.. things latly have came to ahead.. all because my 20 year old daughter started to ask me about the past a few weeks ago, and I tell what happend, and im the bad person.... sorry for going on to much, I know im just new here, but I am so despret to find somewere, so I can let this all out x Im sick of bottling things up in my head, which are upsetting me so much