Hi, I am new here so I hope I am doing things right & not doing anything wrong like breaking any rules or anything(if i am please, please let me i know),but, I would like to welcome u to my crazy wonderful life by introducing myself & my family. (When I refer to my family in posts I mean the part of the family that actually lives in our home full time. But please dont think that I dont feel our children that dont live with- us full time are our family just as much because they are. I guess it is just easier to explain) My family is made up of Me(mom), SO(dad), 13 yr old Daughter(A), 3.75 yr old difficult child Daughter(C), 3.5 month old Daughter(T), 7 yr old annoying JRT(dog)-definitly not mine!...lol, Buddy - 11.5 month old ACD/Catahoula Leopard Dog mix my Mobility Service Dog in Training. My SO & I have been together for 2 yrs. We are a blended family that originally blended his 2 girls (1 no longer lives with us but comes to stay on holidays) & my little girl who claimed him as daddy right away. I am the stay at home mom & homemaker while he works 6 days a week 10-12 hrs a day. I am truly blessed to have such a wonderful family & now for the crazy part: I am 29 yrs old & have multiple health problems/disabilities both physical and mental. My little girl that is almost 4 has been diagnosed with- severe ADHD, ODD, & anxiety disorder(currently not otherwise specified but leaning towards Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)). She is in preschool & this her second year in this preschool. She started earlier than normal due to a referral to childrens developmental services because of extreme aggressive tendencies towards others, extreme meltdowns, meltdowns that would result in her purposefuly harming herself, anxiety over the smallest changes& sensory issues. Life is frustrating and challenging to say the least just with my many issues alone & it becomes extremely chaotic, beyond frustrating& exhausting(physically & emotionally) when you add (C's) issues to the day. Add the the new baby and things including (C's) behavior has gotten worse. I am at a loss what do I do? I feel like I am getting after her all day long and we constantly fighting each other. She hit the baby the other day cuz she wouldnt look at her. She wont listen to me. The psychologist I had her seeing just doesnt listen to me. I know he is a very good psychologist but he just wont listen to me when i tell him there is more going on and that she needs further testing done. I am at my wits end. I feel like I am a horrible mother. I just dont know what to do anymore.