RN0441
100% better than I was but not at 100% yet
We had a FaceTime with our son on Friday night; he was waiting for Irma to hit but was in sober living, had supplies and was safe so I was not too worried.
He showed us his apartment and said his roommate had gone back to rehab for drugging. OMG what is up with this. My son had done the same thing last month. I made comments as to how when I was young drugging would put you on the street or in a grave. We didn't have rehabs etc.
It was a good conversation but I thought....his eyes looked funny....but I figured they couldn't because he gets drug tested. I figured it's just me or his antidepressants or whatever. I didn't even say anything to my husband about it. I had a feeling in my gut.
Husband heard from him via text Sunday that all was okay with storm. Then I got a text from his girlfriend last night that he left sober living since he was doing drugs (not sure what) and took and Uber to her grandmother's house! She let him in because she knows him well. Girlfriend is in college four hours away and said he could not stay there. Stomach punch.
I talked to his Program Director and they said he cannot come back there because it sends the wrong message to others. I get it. If you are serious about being sober you don't need some clown using it like a hotel! They would help him find a place to go though. They are wonderful people there. I feel so sad that he disrespected them and the program.
Son tried to call his dad several times during all this. He refused to answer. Angry. Then some other Florida number kept calling. Did not answer. Later girlfriend said he had told her he could go back to the original rehab he had gone to last year if he had a ride there. Last I know he got in a white van last night.
I don't know where he is. He doesn't have much money. Is supposed to work today. I'm trying to remain detached as much as I can but of course I'm worried. I'm trying to work and hold it together.
Why is he getting worse? He has all the education about drugs, what it takes to get sober and stay sober. Why is he getting worse instead of better? Does anyone know?
I so don't get it and I've read everything on earth about this...addiction.
He showed us his apartment and said his roommate had gone back to rehab for drugging. OMG what is up with this. My son had done the same thing last month. I made comments as to how when I was young drugging would put you on the street or in a grave. We didn't have rehabs etc.
It was a good conversation but I thought....his eyes looked funny....but I figured they couldn't because he gets drug tested. I figured it's just me or his antidepressants or whatever. I didn't even say anything to my husband about it. I had a feeling in my gut.
Husband heard from him via text Sunday that all was okay with storm. Then I got a text from his girlfriend last night that he left sober living since he was doing drugs (not sure what) and took and Uber to her grandmother's house! She let him in because she knows him well. Girlfriend is in college four hours away and said he could not stay there. Stomach punch.
I talked to his Program Director and they said he cannot come back there because it sends the wrong message to others. I get it. If you are serious about being sober you don't need some clown using it like a hotel! They would help him find a place to go though. They are wonderful people there. I feel so sad that he disrespected them and the program.
Son tried to call his dad several times during all this. He refused to answer. Angry. Then some other Florida number kept calling. Did not answer. Later girlfriend said he had told her he could go back to the original rehab he had gone to last year if he had a ride there. Last I know he got in a white van last night.
I don't know where he is. He doesn't have much money. Is supposed to work today. I'm trying to remain detached as much as I can but of course I'm worried. I'm trying to work and hold it together.
Why is he getting worse? He has all the education about drugs, what it takes to get sober and stay sober. Why is he getting worse instead of better? Does anyone know?
I so don't get it and I've read everything on earth about this...addiction.