OK, you got your last post so we get ours too, right?? LOL..... Will just keep you in my thought bubble-mini juju, until surgery and then will pour out the major juju at surgery time! Try to have a little fun and distraction if possible in the mean time. I just found the best place for people going thru stuff, initially designed for people facing challenges like you are facing, and it is all free no matter the income level of the person/people. All staff are certified/licensed and background checked and the only records kept are the legal papers required saying this is what we offer and you accept the terms--no treatment records or anything like that so no one so it is very private.
I wonder if there is anything like that around you... individual and group options, meditation, massage, acupuncture, writing programs, lots of those tai chi (sp?) types of things, classes in anything you can imagine and lots of other stuff like an art room and library. All intended to help along side of the medical journey. It is for significant others too, so if you see anything like that check it out, it is really cool. I went to my orientation yesterday and since it is for caregivers too (and they dont check or ask for specifics so really anyone can go) there are a lot of cool things that might help reduce stress and help with any kind of healing.