So we are home now. It is hard for me to post, because I want to say the boys did great, all is well. But of course it's not. We came home to holes in the walls and older son has been gone since he picked us up at the airport. I know he is ashamed of the fact he did damage to the house. According to younger son he got drunk the same day we left. I guess he doesn't remember putting holes in the walls, or throwing food all over the place. Brother cleaned up most of it, but I was still cleaning yesterday. I am so disappointed in my older son. He seemed like he was ashamed, but I don't know if he really gets how disrespectful he is. Younger son said he just got drunk to get drunk, it was daytime and no one was here with him. I guess he didn't do it again the rest of the week? But not sure I believe him. He says he went to two NA meetings after that episode. Maybe he did, maybe he didn't. I don't know. He hasn't been home for us to talk. Tonight younger son talked about moving out and taking a term off of university. I don't my blame him. But I feel like a failure as a parent. I am so defeated. I keep hearing about kids my sons ages who are doing great things, graduating.... And I feel like we modelled that and worked hard to give our boys the opportunities. This is what we get? Two boys who drop out? I don't even know what to think anymore.