I have enrolled the difficult children in the local school. The same one difficult child 1 goes to. I feel awful. It has been a dream of mine to home school my kids since I was in high school. I was home schooled off and on as a child. I have all the stuff. My brain isn't working enough to do it. I am so stressed I physically hurt. My neck and shoulders ache. I have a hard time reading. My eyes skip around the page (or post) making it hard to comprehend. My mind races; mostly about how to keep difficult child 1 safe. I haven't really been able to homeschool since easy child 1 told us difficult child 1 tried to hit her with the piano bench. With the added security measures I'm having to re-learn how to do housework. How do I clean and make dinner while having difficult child 1 in my sight at all times. Its another loss of a dream. My mother in law is coming to help. She is going to "help" husband find a job. While I try to get the kids in routines and get myself in a routine so the house gets clean.