Okay- am I a difficult child? Starting to wonder because I have found such solace, validation, and reassurance after posting my 1st post that I am consumed with checking this forum and reading what everyone has to offer. I have SO much work to do tonight - not enough hours to do it in, yet here I sit. I can clearly recognize what is happening- I have been so strong on my long journey, and so alone that once I opended the floodgates and reached out, it has made me weak to the whole situation. I know its necessary, and well deserved. Had I had the support all along, this wouldn't be the case. There is no issue more important in my life than my son and his situation- but I know I need to stay focused in my work and do what I need to logistically to be able to do what's necessary. How can I reach this balance when I've brushed my own mental/emotional well-being under the rug for years? I steal my time as it is to be successful in work- lately I've been tending to my 'own needs' which basically involves checking in here- my safe place where I can share with all of you- and offer the little of myself I have to offer - after being a mom! Bless you all and your situations- as many of you have told me.... you are not alone.