Just had the most horrible visit with difficult child at the psychiatric hospital. He's supposed to be released tomorrow so I went to visit him today with the hopes of reinforcing some of the things my husband and I expect of him when he comes home. Things such as no more stealing, no more lying, do your laundry....etc. Instead of listening to what I had to say he kept changing the subject and playing with these stupid little hackie sack balls. I kept trying to calmly explain to him that we need him to understand and agree to the rules of the house before he comes home. At that point he started to get agitated and put his hands over his face and refused to talk to me. I tried to stay calm and change the subject so that he could cool off a little but instead of cooling off he simply looked me straight in the eye with an evil look and said "I don't give a f**k anymore" and got up and walked away from me. As I was leaving the nurse pulled me aside and asked what happened. I explained and she said plain and simple to call his clinician and request that he not be discharged tomorrow. She said "you know, he doesn't HAVE to be discharged tomorrow". In all honestly I'm a little relieved because I don't think he's ready to come home. He functions well there because he knows how to "play the game" but has no regard for any rules or expectations we have for him at home. We're not going back to how things were. He will either do as he's told or he will not come home. No more guilt here! I'm angry now!