So I just got back from visiting my son in the hospital. He seemed ok. He was acting so much more like his "normal" self. Joking, laughing, and actually talking. He was very tired but that's from the change in his medications. My heart is literally breaking for him. I just want to scoop him up and bring him home and make everything ok but I know I can't do that. I know he needs serious help and going back into a Residential Treatment Center (RTC) is probably best for him. I'm just so sad for him. I know he wants to come home but I'm not sure if we can make it work. It's been complete hell since he came home from the Residential Treatment Center (RTC) 8 weeks ago and I can't see that stopping just because he had a few days away in the hospital. I'm so tired and torn and just want to curl up in a ball and cry!