...of a depressed difficult child if I can't even take care of myself? I finally managed to bathe today. First time since Wednesday. I've been thinking about it for a couple of days, but Thursday was in so much pain I couldn't stand for more than a minute or two at a time and Friday and today, I've been so weak. I've slept more than I've been awake. I felt really gross, but I didn't have the energy to stand long enough to shower. I filled the tub tonight to take a bath and quickly realized that if I'm too weak to stand, I'm too weak to make all the maneuvers necessary to bathe in a small tub. I didn't realize how small it is. Narrow. So, I drained the water and decided that I would use the shower hose and shower sitting in the tub. That ended up being more effort than standing, so after I washed my hair and face, I stood to wash my body. I managed to get half of my hair combed out before I could no longer lift my arm and had to have difficult child finish it for me. I was too weak to even care that I was naked. My mom is coming up tomorrow. She's going to stop and get me a shower stool. Hopefully it works better than sitting in the tub. I also have 3 pounds of ground sirloin, 3 boneless, skinless chicken breasts, 5 small pork chops and a pork roast defrosting on my counter. She is going to prepare several meals so all we have to do is heat them up. I haven't been eating right because I haven't had the energy to make more than a peanut butter sandwich...on one piece of bread. I have 2 baskets and a dryer full of clean clothes that I can't fold. The only reason they are clean is because easy child washed them. difficult child is doing the dishwasher tonight. Oh. And apparently, I'm having GERD symptoms. Sigh. My throat is raw from all the bile coming up. Called my GP today because I wasn't sure what I could take with all of my various medications and she said I could take prilosec and malox. Interesting thing....while reading about GERD it said one of the symptoms can be chronic earache. I've had that for a long time. Wonder if it will go away now. That would be nice. I know I'm fortunate to have my mom help me out so much. I know things could be worse. But, I have a very depressed difficult child. This can't be helping things with her. So, I have a pile of guilt added to everything else. I don't mean to be a whiner and I'm sure you guys are sick of it, but I just feel so helpless. My daughter needs me and I can't even take care of myself.