Hi, so we're working hard to make changes. husband and I are working with a good therapist and recently have been trying super hard not to "fall in the ditch" with difficult child once he's headed there. We are trying to take care of ourselves and to help easy child take care of himself. Today difficult child didn't go to school because it was Career Day and he thought it would be boring...it bothers me that he was very cavalier about it and doesn't even seem to have any qualms about not going. We have SO much to tackle. Drug use, boundaries, running away, consequences and every day it's something new. It all seems so very overwhelming. It seems like we walk on eggshells while we wait for the next drama of the day. I keep telling myself that we have to take things one step at a time but sometimes it's just so darn hard to let go of the life we thought we would have to accept this new one. It's so hard not to be immobilized by such a scarey and uncertain future. I'm so afraid that we won't get him the help that he needs...or that he'll never accept that help. It's so sad to lose hope. Guess I'm feeling sorry for myself at the moment and venting. Sorry for the whining but thanks for reading.