I know that by letting difficult child stay here we are helping him be a drug addict, contributing to his death. But, how does a parent get to the point where they put their kid out? What's conflicting for me is that it really isn't bad having him live here. The only negative really is that he's messy. Otherwise, when he's here I usually enjoy his company. He's not even home a lot. He's been working a lot and stays at sister in law's a few nights a week (closer to his job). When he is here, he's in the other room playing video games or on his Kindle or sleeping. Here's the thing---I'm thinking it's bad. Worse than I let myself believe. First I hoped it was only pot. Then I found out about 'occasional' (according to him) cocaine use. Last night when I went to sit on the sofa where he had fallen asleep the night before, I found a xanax. husband has a prescription so I asked him and he verified that that's what it was. husband keeps his medications pretty safe but of course difficult child could be stealing them. Even if he's not, he's getting them from off the street. So, I find the xanax and wish I hadn't...because, now what? He's working, he's paying us rent, he isn't confrontational or disrespectful to us...I don't want to throw him out, but I don't want to help my son be a drug addict either. I'm so lost.