I don't want you in my life right now? I thought I was pretty clear in my letter to difficult child, but he doesn't get it. He doesn't want to get it and I'm floundering. He's called at midnight and I've picked him up. The other night he called and I wouldn't answer the phone. There was a knock at my door and I wouldn't open the door. Suddenly, there was a voice in my bedroom, "Mom?" He needed a ride. The last time he was in my bedroom he tried to kill me. His tattoo is infected so I bought him some bacetracin. He came and got it last night and I made him leave immediately. He will NEVER grow up and he will NEVER appreciate me unless he doesn't have me. I have to somehow break this chain. A deadbolt is being installed this weekend. My divorce is next Thursday. Will it ever end?