Ok...all I will say is that we had a really GREAT week that ended BAD! To tired to explain all, used up all my energy to fight back difficult child! And all of this because he had the thought stuck in his head that he wants to rent a horror dvd and we said no!!!! First the verbal abuse then holding and pushing husband...then kicking husband in his privates....husband wanted to go to the shop to give the old dvd back and difficult child didnt want him to leave! Then we managed husband to leave so difficult child started pushing and shuffing me....I am a small person and he is getting bigger and stronger...... So after he pinched my arms and started pushing harder I went to lock myself and PT in the walk in cupboard, but difficult child started hitting it very hard with the skate board, until I opened.... He then got it in his head that it will be better if I could be dead....I was so worried, what if one day this thought overwhelmes him and he later only realize what he has done!? Luckily he still has enough impulse control to not hit me with whatever he is threatening me with!!!! We cant lock him somewhere, because we have no keys for safety measures! We were thinking of subscribing to an armed reaponse unit to get a panic button, but its so expensive! husband said he will use forse or restrained holding if needed even though he reLizes this is not a healthy opsion.... Any ideas will be very welcome!