Good morning everyone, I wish I could say it is a great day. I wish I could be in good spirits. Usually I am even if things aren't going so great. I'm confused right now. Things with the difficult child and husband are looking better. We had a worker here yesterday to put supports into place for the family. (respite care, programs for difficult child, etc...) I should be elated with the outcome. I'm glad to have these things in place but yet I feel blech... Perhaps it is due to knowing that the strife is calming down and now my body can relax a little? Maybe it is just because I'm always the strong one and now that I don't have to worry quite so much, my body is saying enough? Who knows? All I know is that I feel very emotionally blech and there seems to be no real reason for it. I slept well and husband has been doing a lot better so not really on my case for anything. I should be on top of the world and I want to be... but I'm not. Is there something wrong with the wiring in my brain or is this normal? I just want to start crying for no real reason. Meanwhile, my back is giving me grief as it always does in the colder weather. I was injured in a vehicle accident about 7 yrs ago. When the weather gets cold, my back muscles go into spasms. Despite the fact that I love my job, I'm really tired of the shift work. It isn't too great for the family life or the back either for that matter. I have to work on the afternoon shift today and I'm not looking forward to that. Sometimes it just seems that despite the fact we have many people around us, we often feel very alone. I guess I just needed to vent. I'm sorry if I went on too long. Maybe I should just go back to bed and hopefully I will wake up in a better mood.