My son is getting ready to turn 7 and in the first grade. Kindergarten was very rough for him, the teacher, myself, and the office staff. He would knock over tables and chairs, hide in the bathroom - threatening to never come out, throw things, ran away from teacher at field trip, spitting on other children, fighting, on and on.... First grade has been ROUGHER for him, the teacher, myself, the office staff, the lunch room assistants, the bus driver, okay so - All Faculity AND Children. Last Thursday I get a call that he was throwing metal folding chairs into the middle of the gym floor out of anger. The entire gym with students had to be evacuated. Today, two school days later, I get another call. He has pushed another child out of a lunch room set, threatened to run into the parking lot, threw baskets, threw crayons and pencils at students, jumped back and forth on top of tables, ran from the principle after kicking and punching her. And it's only Monday!! I have done time out, excercises, taken toys and privilages, special rewards for good behavior (not focusing on the negative), two years of family and individual therapy, yelled, cried while pleading with him to please make good choices, threatened that Santa would not show up, soap in the mouth, grounded him to room, taken away sport activities ... and I am still here writing this note! I recently had him evaluated (single mom with no money takes a long time for anyone to see us) and the main results are the following: - ADHD - Mood Disorder - Reading Disability - IQ 121 - Visually Gifted Now what? I have an appointment with peditrican to start medications. What kind? Which do I treat first, ADHD or Mood Disorder? And what kind of Mood Disorder? What kid of Learning Disability? How do I know if it is working or hurting him? What if he doesn't improve? What choice do I have if my six year old son is kicked out of a public school? Are these all signs of LARGER problems to come as a teenager and even worse in his adult life? Where do learn about ADHD and mood disorder? (Internet is very contradictive from each piece of information to the next.) How do I select a good therapist for him? Should I change schools? I just don't understand my child. He has such a great sense of humor, so kind to animals, sweet and generous to his younger cousins and family members, helpful and respectful at home, very intellegent. I am a very laid back, easy going, nothing is HUGE, don't get angry, easy to get along with. My personality is nothing like his. I don't understand him so how can I possibly help him? He is my ENTIRE world. I write this as tears overwhelm my face as they fall. If I feel this way, how does he feel on the inside? He tells me the kids don't like him because he is mean. He wants to go away somewhere because he is dangerous. He hates his hands. It just breaks my heart. He is six years old and should be digging in dirt to find a hidden treasure. Instead, he is concerned about being dangerous and mean. How do I help him? I know this is so very long and I have never done anything like this before ... I am at my end and for the first time in two years, I feel like there is no where to turn to help my child. Is there even hope for him? I'm so very scared for him! Tomorrow will be different, I know this. I will wake up positive and hopeful for him as I do each morning. Enjoy our morning together and kiss him as he walks to the bus. By the time school releases at 3:45, I know I will have to call the school to check in. It is just to much for today and I am a lost parent! Thank you for listening!