I have been reading the various posts on this site for a few weeks now and it has been so helpful to hear the stories of people who know what I am going through. My son is currently in the hospital for a self inflicted stab wound to his abdomen. They had to so exploratory surgery to make sure he didnt damage any organs. He didnt. They have him on suicide watch and are waiting for a bed to open up at a psychiatric hospital and then they will move him. This turmoil has been going on for years but really took a turn for the worse last January. He cant live at home and the more I stick to my boundaries, the more his acting out escalates. It is so hard to stand firm and watch him continue to self destruct. Thanks for all of the shared stories and insights. It is SO helpful to know there are people out there who really do know the exact same fear, sadness, guilt etc. that I am dealing with.