I live by myself so I guess it gives me way to much time to think!! It has been 3 weeks now since my daughter went off on me because I refuse to let her live with me. She just keeps going for my juggler !! I wish so badly that there wasn't a 3 year old involved, because I wouldn't have a problem if it was just her. I think on down the road how he is never going to get a normal life and she will just ruin him!! He will never get to be in anything in school because she never has a way to get there, He will never know what its like to live in a clean nicely kept home where he has his own room. He will never feel stability with her. He told me the other day that mommy and daddy yell and they say really bad words!! It breaks my heart!! He is so special, so smart, and he will never have a chance with her!! From what I have researched she definitely fits the diagnoses of Borderline Personality Disorder, and from what I've read there is not much to treat it except intense therapy and she will never do that! She has been to psychiatrists, counselors, therapists, and she is so good at telling them what they want to hear that she doesn't feel she has a problem! Since my middle daughter had her first baby,my Difficult Child is always making comments like he is more important then her 3 year old!! I love them both soooo much,but I work full time and yes I now have to split my time with them AND try to have time for me !! I think she is mad because I don't take him as often and she doesn't get a break. I don't know I am so tired of thinking about everything and trying to make sense of it...It devours all my alone time at night. There is just no solution but to sit back and watch everything unfold! I feel helpless. She has 4 kids 20,17,12,and 3 the two oldest boys are on their own, the 12 year old little girl lives with her dad and step mom and is very well taken care of, but she never sees her....and then she meets baby daddy number 4 and has the little one!!! I know I am rambling, but I cant seem to stop thinking about everything!! I am to the point where it is making me physically sick. I know I have to come to grips with it and take care of myself, But I just seem to keep letting it consume me!!!