My nephew will be turning 28 tomorrow. He's my Godson and I've posted about his being a difficult child before, his opiate addiction, alcoholism, etc. So, I heard part of the story New year's eve - apparently my sister and H (the brother in law I work for) caught him in a string of lies and discovered that he's using again and this time he's hit bottom (or what they perceive to be his bottom). We've been very close and he's confided in me a lot of things over the years, most recently his struggle with his addiction. Anyway, my nephew is hanging on by a thread and he said some things to me. For instance, he told me he's taking tomorrow off from work (he works with me and brother in law), so I asked him what he's doing on his day off for his birthday and he said: "I don't want any gifts. In fact, I'm giving everyone else a gift for my birthday. That's right, I'm going to give everyone a special gift that will finally make them happy." Obviously, we talked some more, he ended up crying, my insides were all jittery and he left for lunch with his dad. When I returned from lunch, I saw nephew leaving and I went straight to my brother in law and told him what his son said. I know we cannot jump through hoops for him as he struggles with his addiction and recovery (his parents are having him drug tested and contemplating having him sign himself into a program) and that we all need to practice detachment - but isn't this the exception? I've heard him talk before jokingly about killing himself - but this was different and in light of recent events, his comments held more weight with me. I am very afraid that he may harm himself. My brother in law said they will keep an eye on him. We're supposed to go over their house for cake tomorrow night for his birthday. If he hurt himself it would just completely break my heart and so many others.