I sit here in tears...I just can't do this anymore. I have spent most of the past 8 years trying to fix this...and I can't. Just when I think things are better, they are not. I get no break with my husband. I hired a babysitter for last night for the first break we would have had in a LONG time. I had to cancel because difficult child had another rage and husband was angry. Today difficult child had multiple rages, all because things weren't going his way. I kept questioning if it is Gluten, because he had three pieces of toast this morning. He swore at my husband...he has never sworn before. I don't know where he picked that phrase up. Then I just cry...I am so tired of trying to figure it out. I want a normal life. What are my options? I don't want to give up my parental rights...I love him. I just can't live like this and we can't afford Residential Treatment Facility (RTF).