One more week until our "monthly IEP meeting" with the principal in charge. It is so overwhelming after last friday and with his not being right yet. Is it possible for lithium to cause bi-polar symptoms? It is like he is doing ok, I mean really ok, and then gets an idea in his head and falls apart if it does not happen--no frustration tolerance at all and today he broke down in tears over it all. I mean he wanted a freaking Santa hat. IT is so obsessive. At school he fell apart over where he eats his snack. He has this high pitched scream and whine to go with it. He started banging his own head with his hand and on the door frame, over and over and I am trying to ignore it. He says his hand is going numb when he does it. He is absolutely doing it to get my attention (I think it got attention at the hospital) but he is also doing it alone in his room. I dont think it is attention for attention's sake, it is more communication attention.... telling me he is that upset. If I was him, I'd be desperate too. He can't play with any other kids at all after being with friends all summer. It is terribly lonely. I can't have anyone over and cant let him out becasue when I try he refuses to come in and starts swearing and making a scene in front of all the neighbors. Just can't risk it. At school all the kids follow the cue of a few and treat him like you know what... plus they admitted to me that the teachers are always mad at him. So he just bugs the cr*p out of them because he feels so left out and at least it is an interaction. He says he feels so frustrated and lonely because everyone ignores him or says mean things. I was in the library and the boy who started bullying Q in 3rd grade started whispering in fron to f me with his eyes staring at me, I smiled and stared back and he stopped (realizing he was busted) and said, I know who you are (well yeah, we have talked for 5 years several tiems a week, so autistic....lol, and I wanted to say if you ever tell my son again that he is not wanted and is unloved by his mother I will wait after school and get you...LOL but of course that is totally the opposite of who I am. FUnny how the momma bear can come out when you feel your kid is being wronged. Q is not pleasant to be around but so much is triggered and pushed by this and one other kid, as well as all the "behavior" tightening they did this year. I decided to count the number of kids who ran to lunch past me....17! But not one had to go sit in a little room to eat. All of this is so different and I dread the thought of going off or increasing anything medication wise. It would mean so much risk for other things to go wrong. I am anxious to go to Courage Center so we can see if they have any ideas. I actually was going thru their website carefully and they have behavior analysis and programs for brain injury and autism and will work in the schools. I wonder if that is true or not...some things sound good until you actually check it out and the people involved are traditional behavior mod folks. That would never do. I will ask though. Maybe we need half days. ugggg it is tooooo much! just too much. . I just hate all of this. I was talking to Malika about it today and it just gets overwhelming. I wish we were back on summer break. I am so glad winter break is soon. He has been switched from school to school and He wants to "graduate" with the other kids. I feel like he should be allowed to do it at least one time. But if it is going to get worse??? I know we have only just begun with the lawyer and independent fba request as well as the audiologist. The teacher admitted that she was having trouble getting "others" to see her perspective. That makes me so angry and I know it is the psycho psychiatric as well as the principal. Well, this is my job so I have to suck it up. All done whining. I will just monitor him today and call him in sick if he is too blurty. Just not worth it. I will also call the doctor and ask about whether or not too low or high a dose on this medication can cause these mood swings that are not normally a part of him. He has bad days/good days and the bad days are related to health or a stressor....really easy to figure out and to distract him out of. This is different. It is his mood. He was not like this off the Lithium. HE is so obsessed with food that he names restaurants incessantly when hungry until he gets food. I am thinking of buying boost or some kind of lower calorie energy powder to add to milk. What else is filling but not high calorie? He eats carrots and apples and grapes and oranges and pbj etc. ok I will stop. Q wants to go to the grocery store, we need to so I will....this should be fun. I made him eat first, lol.