I don't think I have felt this sick in forever!!!! And I have no idea what is wrong. My boss had the flu, so it could be partly the flu. I also stopped Xanax Monday, so it could partly be that. But oh good god! This is ridiculous. I have so many symptoms that I will not list them all, or bore you - I will just tell you I am not throwing up. Everything else I have, including a fever. Shaky hands, spacey head, sore throat, numbness, poor coordination, etc. I could literally have anything. I feel awful, in every part of my body - and my boss wants me to leave tomorrow for a 5 day business trip in the middle of nowhere. There is not a Dr for 300 miles. Not even a hospital. It is literally in the middle of the desert. I feel like she is already disappointed in me, for some reason, I am not sure why. And so I feel like I need to go on this trip, and not be a weak baby by being sick. In addition, I am second guessing moving here. This town does have a hospital at least, but beyond that, there are only 3 doctors in the whole town - so the medical help is slim. It scares me. I am so alone out here. What if something really bad happened, and I couldn't drive myself to the Dr? We don't even have taxis here. I am feeling very alone and trapped and scared. (And of course Matt is NOT doing well. Why is that always the case? When I am down, he is down.) Anyway, thanks for listening to my whiney vent. I needed to vent to the closest thing I have to a family.