I'm a shell of who I used to be. An utter shell. husband and I aren't connected like we once were. difficult child is in constant trouble at school. His defiance is off the charts. Disrespect in full effect. I don't want to do this anymore. difficult child has had test after test. Tried RX after RX. He is scheduled for Auditory Processing Disorders (APD) test in July. (that is the soonest they could squeeze him in) I want to get in my car (with easy child of course) and just keep driving.