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<blockquote data-quote="Copabanana" data-source="post: 657606" data-attributes="member: 18958"><p>The cruelty in this makes me reel with nausea.</p><p></p><p>Our children have become our perpetrators, manipulating us by our love for who they have been, and at heart may still be. Manipulating us by our hope for them, our fear for them.</p><p></p><p>They know our softest spots, our deepest shames, and most tender bone. And to seek advantage they exploit these private parts.</p><p></p><p>Or failing that, they take their revenge when we have cut off the giving train, now wised up. </p><p></p><p>Because they have the goods on us, they take their revenge. Because they can.</p><p></p><p>Hostages of love we are. Until we chose not to be.</p><p>I do not know yet how to be this parent now out of the limbo in which most of us still live.</p><p></p><p>For now, I have unplugged our phones. </p><p></p><p>I am letting go.</p><p></p><p>I no longer want to participate in whatever it is we have been doing.</p><p></p><p>I have let go of my end. Let him handle his own. </p><p></p><p>I am offering no resistance either way. I am neither in or out. Neither off or on. Not up or down.</p><p></p><p>The thing is, I don't know now where I am, when I am no longer in relation to him.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="Copabanana, post: 657606, member: 18958"] The cruelty in this makes me reel with nausea. Our children have become our perpetrators, manipulating us by our love for who they have been, and at heart may still be. Manipulating us by our hope for them, our fear for them. They know our softest spots, our deepest shames, and most tender bone. And to seek advantage they exploit these private parts. Or failing that, they take their revenge when we have cut off the giving train, now wised up. Because they have the goods on us, they take their revenge. Because they can. Hostages of love we are. Until we chose not to be. I do not know yet how to be this parent now out of the limbo in which most of us still live. For now, I have unplugged our phones. I am letting go. I no longer want to participate in whatever it is we have been doing. I have let go of my end. Let him handle his own. I am offering no resistance either way. I am neither in or out. Neither off or on. Not up or down. The thing is, I don't know now where I am, when I am no longer in relation to him. [/QUOTE]
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