by my family. yup it's been a rough rough past few mos. with-o a doubt. and yes i'm stressed, tired, emotional, swollen and reaching my pt. of no return i guess you could say. funny thing is i say that alot as of late yet always return back to me. i dont' know anymore if that'sa good or bad thing. yet i have verbalized to husband and my family how unappreciated i feel as of late. bigtime. today was supposed to be special, an afternoon with husband and i and no kids no difficult child. the day began late bc as usual difficult child was up till 2 a.m. yet again harrassing me, screaming my name i can't sleep etc. driving me insane. husband and i stayed up past her torment to watch an episode of hells kitchen we'd been dying to see. so yea we're pushing the hours bad just to get time together. and this morning it happens. i fight to get husband and difficult child up. their both cranky. husband runs to get dog food and coffee. i work on difficult child. long story short i wanted to go riding really badly. yet i'm just so swollen so as of yesterday i said it's a no go. than woke up today and said screw it. i wanna go. husband doesn't deal well just like difficult child with change of plans. thank god i dont' have that issue! long story short he says your annoying that your changing plans last min. i'm in this too ya know. well tha'Tourette's Syndrome all i had to hear ****** i was bigtime. got in truck and had a huge argument i broke down and cried and told him bring me home. which he did. and went to work. easy child is nasty and difficult appreciates nothing. watched me unload an entire truck full of groceries today and laid in her bed and watched me even as i asked please help me. she's been grounded so she does nothing for no one and is a big witch. difficult child appreciates zero. i run all day for her, work my butt off even when i'm in pain for whatever she wants and at night she tortures me even when i say hey i don't feel well please stop screaming you took the medications just do your breathing. husband well you can imagine how disappointed i am in him. i was so very sad to be spending my free day wakling thru supermarket and loading and unloading a truck alone and putting groceries away. i just feel very unappreciated as of late to a very high extent. granted i'm emotinoal to no end and mite be making more of this. i dont' know i'm too emotional to tell lol. i just dont' get why does my family bite this way. seriously i do all i can for each one yet it's like i'm the matt and their the shoes sorta thing. i'm like 2 min. away from jumping in my truck and pulling a dss mom move and putting myself upin a hotel for 2 days getting away from all of them and than returning to the mess that will await me and maybe than they'd say oh wow she's really hurting. like enuf is enuf already is how i feel pretty much with all of them. except my two dogs. love them. simple uncomplicated relationship black and white exactly what i love and thrive within.