It has been exactly a month since my sister disappeared - and a couple of weeks since we found her deceased. I have worked probably a week of that, but have not been able to work the rest due to needing to be in Oregon with family. I have had a couple of days off this week, but have been sick with the flu. Tomorrow I will be back at work full time. Seriously? I feel physically drained, and emotionally blanched. The prospect of sitting around here does nothing for me - but the prospect of working and being around people all day is giving me hypothetical hives. I have not even dealt with my grief..........or the bills, or difficult child, or the house. Yet, life has to go on. Just hoping you guys will send me more of your amazing cyber strength............to get through yet another stage in this horrible journey. I will find happiness someday, right?