DammitJanet
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Im concerned. I think I am having issues with Tony. Ok, that isnt true, I know I am. We are at each others throats constantly.
All I hear everyday is how he goes to work everyday but that isnt something I would know about. I "get" to stay home all day every day and do "nothing" and sleep as long as I want. I could do more than I am doing. If you dont use it you lose it. Im just not trying hard enough. If anyone stayed in bed as long as I do they would be miserable and sick. Or even better...if HE stayed in bed as much as I did, HE would be miserable too.
He simply doesnt think I am as bad as I am. Oh he will talk the talk. He claims he believes that I am disabled and will tell everyone that he knows that I am and in front of everyone he acts like he is so caring of me and in some ways he can be. But then when this stuff goes on, it drives me insane. I cannot do more than I can. I simply cant work or stand or drive myself into having to end up in bed for 3 or 4 days in bed just so I can try to stand up and wash dishes or cook a meal on one day that takes more than 10 minutes.
He has announced to me that he has invited his youngest brother and his wife for Thanksgiving. I was appalled. My house is in no condition for anyone to visit. The kitchen is a mess, my living room looks like a storage area because that is where everyone dumps everything coming in or leaving the house. It doesnt even have real furniture in it. My family room does but not the living room. It just has a bunch of junk and trash that needs to go somewhere. I cant move it. Even the crib I bought is still leaning against boxes there. I cant see how "we" who will end up being me because no one else is going to do it, is supposed to get this house in shape for company can do it before Thanksgiving. I know I cant. When I said I didnt want to do this, I got yelled at and told I was selfish and that it would happen. Hmmm. I wonder if he even remembers that right after Thanksgiving is a very difficult date for me. Actually dates. My mom died on the 29th and my dad died on 12/2. It will be 1 year for my dad and 6 years for my mom. I am so resentful.
Then just two days ago Tony had a small job that he could take Cory with him to work with him. Now he always makes this a big deal like he is doing him this huge favor and he is...I guess but its the attitude I could do without. That smugness. Well on Wednesday all was well. Cory now lives about 10 miles from us out in the country. Of course, Tony would NEVER do Cory a favor of going to get him. Never, even though he does sometimes go get other people if they dont have rides. Gag me. Well on Thursday Cory had a flat tire on his way to our house. He got a neighbor to drive him to our house but he got here 15 minutes too late. Tony had already left. Corys phone also had a dead battery. I didnt actually hear Cory come in but Billy did, woke up and went to the bathroom and saw Cory. He thought Cory was here with Tony so he didnt think anything about it and went back to bed. If he had realized what was going on he would have let Cory use the phone to call Tony but neither Billy or Cory thought about it. By the time Cory got here and saw Tony gone, Cory assumed Tony was already on the interstate and wouldnt have waited for him.
Well...Tony is acting like a brat over it. He claims Cory turned off his phone and never came to the house yesterday. BS. He was here all morning. Both Billy and I have told him so but he isnt believing us. Tony is convinced Cory turned off the phone on purpose. I say he didnt. Why would he when he wanted to work? Batteries die. I cant tell you how many times Tony's phone doesnt work when I call him. Oh he says...that is only when he shuts it off so I cant call! Oh really? Hmmm. Guess Im shutting off his phone then. Cell phones are in my name. Hell everything is in my name except the lot my trailer is on.
Im seriously considering "selling" my mobile home to Tony if he wants this place. Then I can move out and get an apartment in a low income apartment for the disabled. I dont need anything but a one bedroom with a walk in shower.
Tony actually didnt tell me he didnt let Cory know they werent working today. If he had told me to call him last night I would have done it. Instead at 4 am Cory called my phone because Tony's phone wasnt answering. Tony wakes me up to tell me my phone was ringing. I called Cory back to tell him they werent working today because it was raining. Because no one told them last night they had to wake the baby up at 4 to get her dressed to get in the car. Im ticked. That was childish. Tony's answer was...well he should have called me yesterday morning.
Batteries. Or signal issues. Anything can happen with a cell phone. Its not rocket science.
All I hear everyday is how he goes to work everyday but that isnt something I would know about. I "get" to stay home all day every day and do "nothing" and sleep as long as I want. I could do more than I am doing. If you dont use it you lose it. Im just not trying hard enough. If anyone stayed in bed as long as I do they would be miserable and sick. Or even better...if HE stayed in bed as much as I did, HE would be miserable too.
He simply doesnt think I am as bad as I am. Oh he will talk the talk. He claims he believes that I am disabled and will tell everyone that he knows that I am and in front of everyone he acts like he is so caring of me and in some ways he can be. But then when this stuff goes on, it drives me insane. I cannot do more than I can. I simply cant work or stand or drive myself into having to end up in bed for 3 or 4 days in bed just so I can try to stand up and wash dishes or cook a meal on one day that takes more than 10 minutes.
He has announced to me that he has invited his youngest brother and his wife for Thanksgiving. I was appalled. My house is in no condition for anyone to visit. The kitchen is a mess, my living room looks like a storage area because that is where everyone dumps everything coming in or leaving the house. It doesnt even have real furniture in it. My family room does but not the living room. It just has a bunch of junk and trash that needs to go somewhere. I cant move it. Even the crib I bought is still leaning against boxes there. I cant see how "we" who will end up being me because no one else is going to do it, is supposed to get this house in shape for company can do it before Thanksgiving. I know I cant. When I said I didnt want to do this, I got yelled at and told I was selfish and that it would happen. Hmmm. I wonder if he even remembers that right after Thanksgiving is a very difficult date for me. Actually dates. My mom died on the 29th and my dad died on 12/2. It will be 1 year for my dad and 6 years for my mom. I am so resentful.
Then just two days ago Tony had a small job that he could take Cory with him to work with him. Now he always makes this a big deal like he is doing him this huge favor and he is...I guess but its the attitude I could do without. That smugness. Well on Wednesday all was well. Cory now lives about 10 miles from us out in the country. Of course, Tony would NEVER do Cory a favor of going to get him. Never, even though he does sometimes go get other people if they dont have rides. Gag me. Well on Thursday Cory had a flat tire on his way to our house. He got a neighbor to drive him to our house but he got here 15 minutes too late. Tony had already left. Corys phone also had a dead battery. I didnt actually hear Cory come in but Billy did, woke up and went to the bathroom and saw Cory. He thought Cory was here with Tony so he didnt think anything about it and went back to bed. If he had realized what was going on he would have let Cory use the phone to call Tony but neither Billy or Cory thought about it. By the time Cory got here and saw Tony gone, Cory assumed Tony was already on the interstate and wouldnt have waited for him.
Well...Tony is acting like a brat over it. He claims Cory turned off his phone and never came to the house yesterday. BS. He was here all morning. Both Billy and I have told him so but he isnt believing us. Tony is convinced Cory turned off the phone on purpose. I say he didnt. Why would he when he wanted to work? Batteries die. I cant tell you how many times Tony's phone doesnt work when I call him. Oh he says...that is only when he shuts it off so I cant call! Oh really? Hmmm. Guess Im shutting off his phone then. Cell phones are in my name. Hell everything is in my name except the lot my trailer is on.
Im seriously considering "selling" my mobile home to Tony if he wants this place. Then I can move out and get an apartment in a low income apartment for the disabled. I dont need anything but a one bedroom with a walk in shower.
Tony actually didnt tell me he didnt let Cory know they werent working today. If he had told me to call him last night I would have done it. Instead at 4 am Cory called my phone because Tony's phone wasnt answering. Tony wakes me up to tell me my phone was ringing. I called Cory back to tell him they werent working today because it was raining. Because no one told them last night they had to wake the baby up at 4 to get her dressed to get in the car. Im ticked. That was childish. Tony's answer was...well he should have called me yesterday morning.
Batteries. Or signal issues. Anything can happen with a cell phone. Its not rocket science.