I have been in a bad place for the past 3 weeks. I just did not realize it til toni ght. I have not took my bipolar and diabetic medications for 3 weeks. I just refused to take them, I really did not know why; I just did not want to take them. I thought I was doing good not being on my bipolar medications, I have not had any depression or any outrages. I just did not seem to care about anything. I had a blow up with husband tonight and reality hit me. I have not took my diabetic medications because I was wanting my sugar to get up so high that maybe my organs would shut down or I would go into a diabetic coma. Do get stressed I have took my medications tonight. I will continue to take them and husband also said he is going to make sure I take them. I am going to call my psychiatrist on fri. and make an appointment. If I cannot get seen by her fri, I am going to go to the hospital to get some help. I think I am going to be okay, husband is watching me closely and will continue to do it. I am having a lot of finacail problems at the moment. but I honestly think it will get better. I am continueing to try to think positive, and do believe that when our new president gets into office htat it will get better. I am making a promise to myself and to all of u that I will take my medications everyday and if I feel like something is wrong I will come here adn not be afraid to ask for help. Thank you for letting say what and how I feel.