good morning, where is everyone?? boards are slow a bit lately. I guess we are all in the crazy mist of the holidays!! LOL...... So, I made a mistake with my little difficult child, and it hit me last night. I had a few mos. ago registered difficult child into a theatre group. They were putting a production on in january, a play. difficult child always showed such interest in live theatre, i've taken her to a few shows and she loved it. So, it was one of the things i implemented with the medications, therapy, etc. etc. i figured it would create a outlet for her. I think to some extent she has enjoyed it, the practice, the experience of it, etc. she hasn't made any friends granted, she just sits quietly in the corner, and 've noticed as of late how her skin seems to crawl. well, i was just plain stupid. What was i thinking reaching that far with a child with whom has serious issues and who is currently taking medication putting that much on her?? crazy me. So, she's been cycling lately even on medication, we've had to increase, etc. than last night she finally caved and said mom i just can't do it, i can't get up on a stage in a huge theatre (it seats 1,000 ppl) and speak my lines, and do all that and you will be so far away in the audience. yet i've told the new friend i made that i'll be in the play and dad and grandma and i feel like a failure now. so, i made a mistake. i should of started her with a low key dance class if any. yet i went too far. so, now i gave her another issue to handle. I was pretty upset with myself last night for not really thinking and being realistic. Yet i have to get past that part of it and help her thru how she's feeling about it. I dont want this to trigger a depressive episode. i told her how proud i was that she went to the practice's, how she went into the room feeling uncomfortable and not knowing anyone and how she did so well with it all. yet she cried alot. she said i should of known myself better, i knew i wouldn't be able to do this. i said no, i should of known better it's all my fault. so, i have to go to the dance school today adn talk to them. their going to be upset she tried out for the part. i have to see if they can get another girl now so last minute their going to be very very upset. yet difficult child comes first. i wanted to try to enroll her, my exdh is paying so i wanted to see if i could just get her into a dance class quickly there. i'm just kinda confused and not really sure how to handle this without setting her off. any ideas??? i did give her options of me asking producer if i could go back stage the day of the play to be there for her. i pushed how proud i was of her for going to it, etc. etc. and how she can just tell her friends that she changed her mind and doesn't want to be in the play.