Hey everyone, just wanted to let you know I survived my first holiday despite all the changes in my life. My dad came in last Sunday and has been frozen all week and lets me know it every two seconds I love him dearly but the older he gets the more he complains about EVERYTHING!!!! I have just sat back and bit my tongue all week because this was after the first Christmas without my mom. It's just tough because he stays with me and because he felt it was as cold as the antarctic, even though it was seasonably mild, it was a very very very long week. I got up this morning and he was sitting on my couch with his winter coat on all wrapped up in blankets I shouldn't complain though because I know he will never come here in the winter again. We had easy child's 18th birthday party last week and it was the first social event I shared with s2bx. Get this, he walked right by my bff Jill without a word and when she questioned him on it he told her him and his girlfriend aren't trusting anyone anymore and that he's mad at her for hurting me because she answered me honestly about his affairs!!!! So I guess he's not responsible for hurting me now, it's my bff's fault for being honest with me. Then I went to s2bx's youngest brothers house on Christmas eve, who by the way has been very cold to everyone, including me, like I was the one who did everything wrong. You can tell his girlfriend is telling him how he needs to treat everyone. I just ignored him, he left really early and I spent the rest of the evening enjoying the people who are my friends and still consider me family, including my mother in law. Then on Christmas day I had my family over and s2bx for dinner at the request of my children, and it will be the last time. He wasn't that bad, but he wasn't that good either. He ate dinner, had desert and left. All in all it was a pretty nice holiday. The highlight of it all was on Christmas day when my dad, my brother and I all opened our memory globes that contain my moms ashes. They are beautiful. I put mine on the lit base and plugged it in and it has been lit ever since. I haven't really had a chance to get on much and catch up on how everyone elses holiday went, but I'm hoping they were happy and uneventful. I'll have more time in the next few days as I'm bringing my dad to the airport tomorrow morning. Catch up with everyone then.