I am thinking I might really be having a nervous breakdown. Forever I have been depressed and it's about as bad as it gets. I am anxious and really feeling pretty badly. Ugh, can't even stand to say all of that. For the last several months, I have noticed a change in my memory. I can't remember things and I can't stay focused on anything no matter how hard I try. I am useless at work. I can answer the phone and things of that nature but anything in any detail are gone. I could start it but can't get going in it. I keep telling my friends that there is an issue, but I just keep getting it's stress, and we all forget stuff. It's not the same. I am not the same. The last few weeks, I have times that I don't feel anything. Numb, feel like I am lost. I was at church yesterday and the Pastor was chiding us about not being more jubilent during our Praise and worship time. I went to church to feel better and was for a moment, then I just went somewhere when the chiding started. I was in my own little world, looking around and smiling at the babies, and not thinking about anything being said. He called for prayer at the front of the church, and I didn't pray for the girls that he requested prayer for, I began to think how pretty my pastor's wife really is. She is my best friend and has been for 25 years. She wants me to fight it and believe that it's going to get better. I feel like it's time to just accept that this is happening and that thought I might not be what I once was mentally, but maybe I will still be okay and not hurting anymore either. it almost seems like a nice place to be when i am in that state of mind. I am really scared though, because I don't know how far my mind is going to sink. Can this be stopped is it too late? Does anyone know, has this happened to anyone you know?