Something triggered it this morning. When I checked facebook this morning, Ant was tagged in photos from father in law. Photos from the time that they had taken Ant. And I am ******!! Ant should of been living with us at that time, not with them. I really thought I had worked through all my issues with them but I guess not because I am so mad again. They had no right to do what they did. And husband was still an active alcoholic at that time so he was useless. The In-laws went out of their way to give Ant everything he wanted while purposely hurting Steph and easy child. They tried their best to destroy my family and my marriage. And let's not forget that they repeated the process with Steph... I really thought I was at the place of indifference. Guess I was wrong. I'm hoping that this is residual anger working it's way out and that I'm not heading back to where I was when this thing started. I don't like hating people and yet I'm full of hatred towards them right now. And fear, and distrust. I don't trust them. And if they can find a way to cause more pain, they will do it. Since I can't afford to go see my counselor right now.... If you have any advice on how to work through this, I'd really appreciate it.