About how much this recent episode with Wynter has just completely worn me out - emotionally and physically. And I remember how things used to be with her. How she was struggling daily for some kind of control. How she was spiraling so hard and fast. How it was daily meltdowns and rages and sobbing and wanting to die. And I wonder how in the world did I do it? Because this just wiped me out and it was nothing compared to what we've been through. True, it's been building for some time. But compared to the daily living hell we used to live, this was peanuts. And I guess we just do what we have to. Is that really what it is? Or is it when things start to calm down some - or at least are not at that constant crisis level - that we start to become complacent? And I was thinking about everyone else on the board and what they are dealing with daily with their difficult child's. And I wonder how do you all do it? But we do or we did or we have or we are. And, yet, we are still the most compassionate group of people I have come across. Pretty amazing. And, yes, I'm a bit emotional tonight.