I feel so old and like such a foreigner. We went to see Cirque Du Soleil last Sunday. I miss my young body, I miss being able to dance and jump, I have osteoarthritis and have to watch my every move because of the surgeries and bone spurs. I had 10 years of ballet. That feels like a century ago. All my childhood memories are so different than yours, my favorite movies and singers are not yours. It's so hard having a foot in two different continents and two different centuries. Those who knew me and could share the same experiences are dead.