ATragicLife
New Member
I don't know what to do anymore. Im exhausted emotional, physically, and spiritually exhausted. I hate my life. Not sometimes, not just alittle bit, but I truly honestly hate my every single day. How did I get to this point? Where is the woman I once was?! I've been steadily struggling uphill, alone, for so long now, and with no results that I'm losing all sense of hope. I feel trapped, defeated, and boxed in. I'm working 2 jobs just to keep up, which short changes the kids in what they need and makes me feel guilty in not being able to do what I want/need to for them even though I'm trying to, especially with the exceptional need for MORE than most in the 1st place. I feel like all I do is run around putting bandaids on everything. There's not enough of me to go around, and it's killing me, and no matter how hard I try to find solutions I end up empty handed. I don't wish the hell of dealing with conduct disorder on anyone, but I especially do not wish it on those who are alone, without proper resources, without proper support systems, roadblocked into a cycle from which they cannot ever seen to escape...