difficult child, 2 days ago, had a "friend" over. It turned out to be the one he'd turned in before for drugs and then again a couple of mos ago for cutting himself (he reported it at school). I told difficult child the boy needed to leave, difficult child left with him for about 1/2 hour without permission, so I grounded difficult child. Yesterday after school, the boy kept calling every 3 mins and I told him difficult child can't come to the phone and that he's grounded. Then, difficult child snuck out the back door. I called and left a message for PO. difficult child came back about 45 mins later and said he'd been hanging out with that boy. I told him I'd left message for PO and he should remember that last spring he disppeared and went to that boy's house and ended up on the ankle bracelet. So, difficult child calls the boy and tells him to stay away from him because he got into trouble every time he came around. Mind you, it was difficult child that chose to leave without permission. Then, difficult child didn't go to school today. I went to work for a few hours and never heard one word from the PO. So, I came home and called state dept of mental health. They have about 20 phone numbers lsited for different areas and the first 2 I tried, I only got a voice mail. Then I tried a 3rd and explained everything- I cannot afford to raise this kid with no help anymore. She gives me the phone number of someone else there who she is sure can point me in the right direction. I call him and explain it all again. He says call the local Children Services Board (CSB)- which I explained, I tried that 6 mos ago and could never get a case manager to call me back. So, he says he'll call someone over there. He does that and then tells me he is sure she can help me. So, she calls me and says she understands I have a kid with MR. No, he's not MR. Oh, that's right Mr. X said he's autistic. No, he's not autistic. So, I explain everything to her. She says well, what do I want, they don't just hand out money. I said at this point, could she just tell me who I contact to find someone that can meet all the requirements that this kid needs because I can no longer afford it. She wanted to know if difficult child had ever been to counseling there. I said yes and that I wouldn't give one dime for any counselor there and I was not looking for that. She said she was just a human resource person and she needed to have someone else from there call me to talk to me. I told her not to bother having one of their tdocs call me. She says ok, that she needs to talk to a few people so she'll know who to steer me to. Then, 2 mins later, someone else calls me. I asked who she is, what is her position and where is she calling me from. She says she's calling from mental health and that she's a supervisor and she needs to know what is going on so she can help me. I told her not to bother- I had another call coming in and it's probably the PO. She tried to keep me on the line but I felt like at this point, she isn't going to do anything other than have me re-tell it all again anyway and then recommend a therapist. So, I hung up to try to catch the other call coming in from a county agency and I missed it. I jusst checked my voice mail- it was the recording at school saying difficult child was absent today.