Lets start with my dad and grandfather both have severe health issues and are dying..... My best friend with Bipolar is having a breakdown possibility I may get her son for a while.... My Sister is also having a breakdown.... I have no Job and am freaking out how am I going to pay bills My kids dad is starting his "attitude again with me" My Son is still struggling in school, his deffience is yikes, last night he said he'd kill himself If I didnt let him go outside and play and for something else I cant remember.... demands etc.. still violent of course.. At the Museum/farm he squeezed my hand so hard and was angry and demanding where to walk..when even tho his friends were there... ( brand new place yes) for at least 30 minutes then he loosened up when a boy kept bugging him to go with him and he should ( my son) have many friends etc!!! Then my son started running with the kids and playing. One of my friends says he seems calmer.. the Clonidine I think is making him tired..because I too don't see the extreme energy he had before. No one believes me he is actually a hyper..outgoing/angry child because he is sometimes calm but after he feels comfortable bam!!!! On the way home from the trip he started blinking really fast.. and when i touched his shoulder called his name he quit then he was breathing fast the third time he did that.. he said he didnt feel good but was ok. Because of medications? No other issues other nausea and tired... and was actually behaved at the restaurant! No going under tables... no jumping on the seat and no getting in and out of booth!!!! He again said he didnt feel good, did eat a little but was extremely mouthy as usual. Maybe cuz he didnt feel good or because of medications? He is still not eating enough and both medications require full healthy meals!!! Im trying!!! This morning Im happy he ate a bowl of soup and bread!!!! Lunch he ate a little.. dinner hes nibbling still... My Daughter is really.. really scared of needles/medications/tests that Dr.s do, another comment on how she shows NO EMOTIONS By sons Scout Master!!!! At Dr's today which got canceled cause wrong Dr for Insurance for her, (so we go back next week )but she literally got so scared of cat scan and IVs she flipped out!!! I told her anxiety of these things, anxiety or something of not able to talk to people.. omg!! She needs to get tested and she is going and they will probably give her little pills to help her be able to relax and OMG!!!! Did I have a battle from my extremely quite daughter!! Shes still in a mood!!! I don't know, I know she needs the help.. some type of help..... we all do we need therapy and more testing so bad I can taste it!!! Where can I go for help? Im researching for my kids, as well as waiting on the referral from neurologist this month, but will they do family sessions? Can they help me too? I want to learn how to cope with all these issues because frankly.... I can do better.. I need someone to lean on because everyone else is leaning on me, which I LOVE HELPING PEOPLE AND BEING HERE FOR THEM BUT i NEED SOMEONE AS WELL. I mean, I know you all here for me too, but I need someone here to be able to help when one or both of my family is in the hospital..( has already happened a couple of times) I lean on another friend but she has helped me soooo much already I cant ask her anymore ya know? What do I do>? What can I do?