hi guys sheesh always something with-me huh....?? here i am reading the responses from posting the home schooling thing. and i do agree was planning on turning it into an adventure. the teacher called and said that her and the school pyschologist were discussing it and they both hope i get the answers i wnat and need for rin because everyone seems to feel that hospitalizing her so she can truly be observed is the way to go. that i'm spending alot of time, money i don't have (which at this point i don't care how long it takes to pay it off) to get an answer that i may not get becauese their only giving her standardized pyschoneurological tests adn won't be observing the behaviors all day and night long. this being said it threw me into tail spin this happened at office right before i left. i went into my boss who knows me and rin's condition well she's watched it go downhill for 5 years and said to me jen i hope you get hte answers you need as well. yet at this point i think i'd wnat her hospitalized so that someone can truly observe her. so here are my thoughts....... 1. if i admit her (i can't even find a place by the way) wouldn't her anxiety level fly thru roof most average functioning kids would. hence how could they observe true behaviors when everything will be exaggerated. 2. where???????? i've checked all over our area long island nyc etc. can't find one that i like. (this i can research though) so here i am ready to book hotels tonight in jersey for testing and thinking maybe i'Tourette's Syndrome wrong thing, maybe i just wanted an answer and don't wnat to admit her (she is not in "crisis" mode) yet everyone feels as i said they won't be around her long enough to truly observe her and finally nail it on the head. so yup i'm confused. i called columbia today told the girl said don't cancel but do you guys have a day program or inpatient?? she said she'll call me back. i feel bad i've driven these people nuts. there's another program sagamore children's facility i looked on web it's a state run facility..i'm not feeling it. so now once again from one woman's words i'm contemplating. she's right though i know she is in my gut. rin's anxiety seems to have lessened soemwhat in school, yet she isn't retaining anything or focusing is still somewhat withdrawn but it's lessened somewhat with me pulling her off medications, extremely needy academically and emotionally. wanted the teacher to re do the entire 20 min. lesson today. then teacher said to me can you have her in school earlier? i said ok i'm not taking my time in the morning to have an extra cup of coffee.....?? i'm dealikng with her attached to either hte couch or bed and i have to out wit her and talk her down in the morning most mornings. so do i keep looking for another facility adn really admit her or do i keep with columbia's day testing. i will be very upset if they do the testing and they dont' hit the nail on the head. jen soo confused.