Losingmycookies!
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Very early on I knew something with my daughter wasn't right (like at 2-3) She had terrible temper, hitting, and didn't sleep, ect. I was very young when I had her (18), her father an abuser and we were into some heavy drugs....I didn't use drugs at all when pregnant. Anyhow I we split many many times, and finally after the birth of my second child we ended it for good and I ended up back at home.
I could go on and on about her behavior and yes there has been some really changes that have happened in our lives. I got myself together while at my mom's. My daughter is now 13 and in high school....which she is failing. She is violent, very lethargic, defiant, ect. Things hit the fan about 3 years ago, which is when I began living with my spouse. I'm so frustrated because since this child was a baby I have been taking her to doctors asking for help, I've had every test done possible, hearing, eyes, ect. But because I'm living with my spouse that is the reason she is the way she is.....she blames that too. Anyhow thankfully I have my mom who testifies that this is not the reason, and she has supported me fully on my struggle and has seen what I go through, even before I met my spouse.
Things in the past few years have been terrible, I've admitted her to the hospital, seen a psychiatrist who diagnosed her ODD, and things have been terribel, and I have not handled it very good, and I'm upset with myself because I CANNOT deal with her. I feel sick all the time, and now am getting depressed.
At school she has already been suspended. She is failing so has to attend a noon class...which she doesn't show up for, then get's detention and then doesn't show up to that. Anyhow I have even gone to the school and escorted her to her class, which got me a ton of her middle finger. She says she loves acting, but skipped her Christmas performance which I had no idea about...They told her if she skipped one more thing she is out....she's skipped 3 times. She simply refused to do anything!!! Then they say to me "oh she must be angry at you, or at something at home"...oh whatever!!! She is sooo bright, and gifted, and when they do get her to do things her grade is in the 90% - 100% ......She is depressed and cutting herself now when she doesn't get her way, like when I make her go to school. The last councillor I went to suggested some sort of abuse, which is not the case.....things have gotten to crisis point and I'm the one with the black eyes, cuts, scratches, because I've physically taken her on and tried to follow through with what I've said. Anyhow we are now gettinga new psychiatrist, and I'm afraid....is all this my fault???? Will he say that? I've been driving myself crazy lately with the blame and guilt......
I could go on and on about her behavior and yes there has been some really changes that have happened in our lives. I got myself together while at my mom's. My daughter is now 13 and in high school....which she is failing. She is violent, very lethargic, defiant, ect. Things hit the fan about 3 years ago, which is when I began living with my spouse. I'm so frustrated because since this child was a baby I have been taking her to doctors asking for help, I've had every test done possible, hearing, eyes, ect. But because I'm living with my spouse that is the reason she is the way she is.....she blames that too. Anyhow thankfully I have my mom who testifies that this is not the reason, and she has supported me fully on my struggle and has seen what I go through, even before I met my spouse.
Things in the past few years have been terrible, I've admitted her to the hospital, seen a psychiatrist who diagnosed her ODD, and things have been terribel, and I have not handled it very good, and I'm upset with myself because I CANNOT deal with her. I feel sick all the time, and now am getting depressed.
At school she has already been suspended. She is failing so has to attend a noon class...which she doesn't show up for, then get's detention and then doesn't show up to that. Anyhow I have even gone to the school and escorted her to her class, which got me a ton of her middle finger. She says she loves acting, but skipped her Christmas performance which I had no idea about...They told her if she skipped one more thing she is out....she's skipped 3 times. She simply refused to do anything!!! Then they say to me "oh she must be angry at you, or at something at home"...oh whatever!!! She is sooo bright, and gifted, and when they do get her to do things her grade is in the 90% - 100% ......She is depressed and cutting herself now when she doesn't get her way, like when I make her go to school. The last councillor I went to suggested some sort of abuse, which is not the case.....things have gotten to crisis point and I'm the one with the black eyes, cuts, scratches, because I've physically taken her on and tried to follow through with what I've said. Anyhow we are now gettinga new psychiatrist, and I'm afraid....is all this my fault???? Will he say that? I've been driving myself crazy lately with the blame and guilt......