hi i think i'm just venting.......i'm not sure. so, i'm just totally stumped this time around and confused. sometimes knowledge is power, sometimes it can stop you from moving forward. as many of you know, dr. suggested thorazine, i got alot of responses to dr. wanting to try that, which i appreciate. i spent time looking up medication, what it does, the side effects, which were a page long. so, bottom line is i'm nervous. i have sole legal custody and feel as though i'm placed between a rock and a hard place and left holding the bag. ex is on my back in regards to it, harrassing me regarding it, regarding the diagnosis of bi polar not otherwise specified, anxitey disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD), adhd, and i think tourettes (she has some tics minimal). it's an important decision. we've all been there. i talked myself through abilify last year nad seroquel year before that. i wish more than anything the ssri's had just worked. i felt as though if i could just get that anxiety down, get her sleeping therapy could be used to work on the rest. yet two ssri's didn't work and she went we believe to be manic. so here i am. is she getting through her days, does she find pleasure in them, sure Occupational Therapist (OT) some extent. i'm getting her in the door at school, that's a plus. yet sleep is non existant or has been she's hyped beyond belief. past two days she seemed to of crashed yesterday after being up night before and 3 weeks prior averaging not alot of sleep each night she crashed fell asleep after breakfast and woke up around 1 in the afternoon, then went back to bed last night at 1130 yet couldnt' get her going this a.m. got her in bldg. at school around 10ish. so i can float for a bit more on this decision. just not sure what to do........................ i was actually looking up vitamins today and boyfriend looked at me and said ok what are you doing now? stop it.