Because of the dreams I keep having. Started with I had a baby, 1930's setting, but they wouldn't let me see my baby. I don't even know if it was a boy or a girl. After that, came the dreams where something is wrong with difficult child, but I can't get to her. Either I can't find her, or I have no way to get there, or I get lost, or something or somebody is stopping me. In one dream, she was dead but no one would let me see her. They took care of all of the arrangements and I wasn't allowed to have any part in it. I'm trying to speak, but I can't form sounds. I've even woken myself up trying to speak and the same sounds coming out of my mouth are the ones that I'm doing in my sleep. I wake up sweating, in a panic, heart racing. I guess it's the stress and anxiety spilling over, but I dread going to sleep now. Even when I do sleep, I'm not resting. I'm so exhausted.