My difficult child's counselor at inpatient called this afternoon for a phone conference since he's been refusing to see or talk to me. She wanted to discuss rules and consequences for home before family days on Thursday and Friday. He's scheduled to come home on Friday when we're done with that session and then starts IOP next Monday. Well, difficult child refused to talk to me at first. When he finally did talk, it was terrible. He said he hates me unconditionally and that he planned to bolt (unlocked facility) if I wouldn't pick him up. He knows I would lose my $5000 bail money and that the police would be contacted which could result in another bail jumping charge. It's their proceedure to notify the police right away when someone walks out. He has no phone, money, or calling card so he wouldn't make it far. I called back after an hour and the nurse said his bags were packed, he refused to eat supper or leave his room. The counselor then got on the phone and said that he was crying and said he's never been that mean to me and that he did indeed love me but didn't want to be there and couldn't believe I wouldn't pick him up. She said I shouldn't let him get his way by going to get him. So I'm sitting here hoping the phone doesn't ring. I don't want him to face more charges, I don't want to lose my bail money, and most importantly I wanted this treatment program to help!! I thought he would be much better when the drugs cleared from his system, but our relationship is getting worse. I'm convinced he was self medicating for depression and anxiety. He is not on medications for those conditions, but I did make an appointment with a psychiatrist. My head is spinning!